[but she wouldn't have had it any other way, no matter how complicated everything was. no matter how much her own mind raged like a storm. she mouthed her response to that first part with just a hint of her actual voice behind it. "maybe later." she'd see how she was feeling, but she was already in a better space than she'd expected.]
Gods, I don't know what it is. Just getting all of this out and remembering that you actually want to listen to me makes me feel better. I just... I want you to be part of my life all the time. And I just gotta remember that. I just have to remember this... this whole conversation, I think. [she slid her hand down to Neo's thigh and just rested it there.]
I told you a lot of things I was worried about, and you reassured me, and we figured it out together. And nobody got mad at anyone, nobody... nobody lit their arm on fire or clenched their fist or looked at me like I did something wrong just by breathing towards them. [a pause as she listened to her heartbeat, and heard how it wasn't changing anymore. how it wasn't jumping into her throat. it felt nice.] And I think somewhere in the middle I told you I love you with my voice for the first time?
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Date: 2020-11-11 05:23 am (UTC)[but she wouldn't have had it any other way, no matter how complicated everything was. no matter how much her own mind raged like a storm. she mouthed her response to that first part with just a hint of her actual voice behind it. "maybe later." she'd see how she was feeling, but she was already in a better space than she'd expected.]
Gods, I don't know what it is. Just getting all of this out and remembering that you actually want to listen to me makes me feel better. I just... I want you to be part of my life all the time. And I just gotta remember that. I just have to remember this... this whole conversation, I think. [she slid her hand down to Neo's thigh and just rested it there.]
I told you a lot of things I was worried about, and you reassured me, and we figured it out together. And nobody got mad at anyone, nobody... nobody lit their arm on fire or clenched their fist or looked at me like I did something wrong just by breathing towards them. [a pause as she listened to her heartbeat, and heard how it wasn't changing anymore. how it wasn't jumping into her throat. it felt nice.] And I think somewhere in the middle I told you I love you with my voice for the first time?