I want your help. I want help from everyone who wants to give it.
[even if she thinks that list is very short. even if she thinks the list starts and ends with their fingertips. but there are bigger problems here that she's only able to talk about because she doesn't have to use her voice, even though her hand is starting to feel like her own again. even if she feels like she's regaining control over her body.]
But I don't know what anyone can do to help. I feel like everything I knew about myself is wrong and I don't know how to get that back. I knew she was bad for me. I know she's bad for me. But I still listened to her no matter how much it twisted me inside. The second she showed up again I stopped being confident and started being her lap dog same as always.
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timeasmymeasure
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Date: 2021-02-06 08:38 pm (UTC)I want help from everyone who wants to give it.
[even if she thinks that list is very short. even if she thinks the list starts and ends with their fingertips. but there are bigger problems here that she's only able to talk about because she doesn't have to use her voice, even though her hand is starting to feel like her own again. even if she feels like she's regaining control over her body.]
But I don't know what anyone can do to help.
I feel like everything I knew about myself is wrong and I don't know how to get that back.
I knew she was bad for me. I know she's bad for me. But I still listened to her no matter how much it twisted me inside.
The second she showed up again I stopped being confident and started being her lap dog same as always.