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It seems that Neopolitan still isn't managing to master the fine art of caring to be properly sociable. Still, the inbox does work, and she's known to respond fast enough, if she likes someone. So, at least there's that?
(OOC Note: 99% of all replies will come in the form of Text Messages unless Neo has a strong reason to send video messages. She might send pictures, but she prefers text.)
text; un: shi (misfire!) cw: parental neglect
Date: 2022-11-11 09:00 pm (UTC)maybe it is just what fathers are like
my own father often left me behind in the house by myself for work
and then one day he just never returned even after a week
i was worried something happened to him but it turned out that he just had things he wanted to do more than spend time with me i suppose
even though he said the things he was doing were for my sake
it felt like they were just for himself
i am not sure
i do not want to think harshly of him but it does hurt
so i suppose i kind of understand what you are saying
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Date: 2022-11-12 01:31 am (UTC)But.
I'm pretty sure you meant that for someone else, Chizuru.
Brothers, I think this crap is happening again isn't it?
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Date: 2022-11-13 05:48 pm (UTC)It's the 'meant for someone else' part that gets her to actually look at the username that sent her this message, since she's pretty sure she was talking to Robby..
Except that's.. definitely Neo's username, huh. ]
wait
happening again?
does this happen often
i was talking to a different friend
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Date: 2022-11-14 09:32 pm (UTC)That sort of thing has happened in the past, so when I get really weird messages sometimes that's it.
So you might want to send that to them again.
But, you ok? You need to talk about it?
I definitely understand having issues with your parents.
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Date: 2022-11-16 07:57 pm (UTC)[ Then again - Chizuru would probably say those words under any and all circumstances, exactly because she doesn't want anyone to worry about her.. So it might not mean much. ]
i was just talking to someone about parents
his father is here and they have a difficult relationship
mine is not but i have a difficult relationship with my father as well i suppose i was expressing my sympathy through trying to relate to him
but
did you have issues with your parents too?
CW Parental Abuse of her own!
Date: 2022-11-18 04:33 pm (UTC)And the stupid omni decided to send your message to me instead of him.
Oh, you could say that.
There was that time he grabbed me and held me up by my ankle.
That was a hoot and a half.
He was a real piece of work.
cw: parental abuse all the way down this thread
Date: 2022-11-20 07:39 pm (UTC)that is so awful
[ Especially since she imagines Neopolitan must still have been pretty young back then. Otherwise it'd be pretty hard to hold someone up by their ankle.. ]
it must have been really scary for you
Re: cw: parental abuse all the way down this thread
Date: 2022-11-22 05:04 am (UTC)You know, like father, like daughter, only they were basically bought and sold by powerful gangs.
Mom was trying to groom me, and my powers were inconvenient for Dad.
the bastard never did know how to handle my illusions or imaginary friends.
Since, you know, my imaginary friends are absolutely not imaginary at all and break real vases.
He was pulling me out from somewhere, but it wasn't an excuse.
They kept me locked up a lot.
I eventually found my own way when they shipped me off to a boarding school for future criminals.
Did I ever mention that Remnant is a shitty place? Haha, probably should.
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Date: 2022-11-24 07:21 am (UTC)And in such cruel ways? ]
i am so sorry to hear all of that
even if they were teaching you bad things the least they could have done was treat you kindly
[ Look. Not that Chizuru agrees with the whole 'teaching kids bad stuff' thing in the first place, but she knows how to pick her battles, and she feels much more intensely about the way her friend got treated. ]
after all they were still your parents
they should have loved you as their child
no matter what they were like to anyone else
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Date: 2022-11-24 07:33 pm (UTC)There's something fun about the challenge of breaking into a tough place and pulling off a heist.
That, and my best friend in my whole life for years was another crook just like me, so there's that.
But to him, I was a partner in crime.
To them? I was a tool, or an inconvenience, not their kid.
[Totally not on the same page with "Don't teach your kids to be criminal scumbags." She liked being a criminal scumbag. She just found other ways to use her talents around here since crime really didn't pay in Trench at all.]
That was kind of a "Them problem" in the end.
Roman figured out what I needed and took care of me, and we got older together as the years went on.
It wasn't like he was an older brother or dad, but he 'got me.' They were too wrapped up in their own plans.
And in the end, that was what got them.
Trust me. I don't shed any tears for those two.
They absolutely got what they had coming, by their own hand no less.
Probably screwed me up a little, but I like how I turned out. Mostly.
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Date: 2022-11-27 11:01 am (UTC)[ Granted, apparently it was.. a criminal, who Neo did criminal things with..
But if it made Neo happy, then that's still a step above the existence the other must have had before that. Chizuru can't really blame the other for falling into crime or even liking it when it sounds like the one thing that gave the other happiness, as odd of a thought as it is to an eternal goody-two-shoes like Chizuru.
She pauses for a moment, idly fretting with her fingers, before continuing to write. ]
i am glad for that
i would not want you to be alone
if you have known him for years then i hope that means you were not alone for too long before you met him
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Date: 2022-11-28 09:40 pm (UTC)He will always be the best friend I've ever had, and someone that I love and care about unconditionally.
But this story doesn't actually have a happy ending.
He died in a fight with Ruby years ago in my world.
It's why our relationship is as screwed up as it is, and it can be aa little hard to talk about Roman.
I'm not alone now, but for a while I was.
Being alone in your thoughts when they're pointed at vengeance is never good.
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Date: 2022-11-30 07:10 pm (UTC)It's almost a small miracle that Neopolitan turned out as nice as Chizuru views her to be. ]
you have been through so much
i do not even know what to say
it does not feel like any words would be adequate
but i am so sorry for you
i am really glad you ended up as well as you did at this point
but you should never have had to go through so much to begin with
that almost sounds like too much for any person out there to handle
especially by themselves
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Date: 2022-12-01 06:38 pm (UTC)I know you, so I know you're the kind of person who'd feel sympathy but I'm not usually looking for it.
As rough as it got? The good parts of my life were great.
And when I came here?
Well, let's just say that the "you" that you know of me. The girl you think is so nice?
I'm partially who I am because of what Ruby did for me, for Roman's memory.
And I'm a lot of who I am because Emerald was there for me, and we found happiness.
It's been hard waiting for her, but I'm good at waiting.
[Fidget. Fidget.]
But having nice experiences like this has made it harder to wait.
Been feeling lonely lately, and that feels bad. Does that make sense?
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Date: 2022-12-03 06:49 pm (UTC)[ That feels like the most important thing to focus on here, even in the light of everything else. Chizuru first and foremost wants to make sure that Neo never has to feel like her experiences or feelings are strange. ]
it is admirable to wait the way you have been
but i also understand that it is very hard to do so
this place can be lonely when you do not have the people you care the most around you
even when you have other people here too now
[ It's something Chizuru would have said either way, sure - but it's also something she understands from personal experience. There's no one from her world here either, after all, and after waiting for any of them to turn up for almost a year.. It's starting to feel like she'll be the only one here forever. ]
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Date: 2022-12-04 04:42 am (UTC)Hah, you know I never really am trying to be "admirable."
I just want this place to be a place where she'll be happy living if she shows up.
But part of me hates it a little that I just said 'if' and not 'when.'
I have friends, but it's always a little different.
I'll be ok though, I promise.
I've been alone before.
And besides, I'm not really alone am I?
Not completely.
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Date: 2022-12-05 06:12 pm (UTC)you know saying stuff like that only makes me worry more about you right
?
even if you say you will be okay
i know that it is different
having friends compared to having someone so special and beloved
someone who is like your other half
of course it is harder without them
besides you having been alone before is also sad and worrisome
i want you to be able to live better than that here
one way or another
you deserve it
no matter what you think i will forever think you deserve that
[ There's that classic Chizuru stubbornness when it comes to caring for the people important to her. It says something about how close she feels to Neopolitan that she's willing to whip it out like that, rather than just being polite and deferential. ]
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Date: 2022-12-07 01:43 am (UTC)But, I mean, I just have to keep figuring out a way to cope because she isn't here.
That part of this isn't something anyone can just fix out of the blue, is it?
Still, I know you're going to try to help me be happy.
But I do appreciate that you care.
I think it's just been on my mind lately because I passed an anniversary alone.
[What she wasn't mentioning yet was that the thought of moving on had flickered in there, once or twice. She'd slammed it down pretty hard, but it didn't help her mood that she'd thought about these things.]
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Date: 2022-12-08 09:24 pm (UTC)well
if you want to have an anniversary afterparty where you do not have to be alone
we can have one together
i realise it may be a little strange to do that with someone else
but you could share stories about her
and you could just enjoy a friend's company
that is better than remembering your anniversary as being all alone right
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Date: 2022-12-10 05:23 am (UTC)Why don't we just make a new anniversary to celebrate together?
And I'll remember if this comes around that you're here for that one too.
Something new aand happier.
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Date: 2022-12-12 08:46 pm (UTC)?
[ It's hard to tell across text, and even moreso with Chizuru's way of writing, but she's definitely surprised by that counteroffer coming from Neopolitan. ]
what kind of anniversary could we celebrate together
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Date: 2022-12-13 05:51 am (UTC)Well, an anniversary's starting something.
What's something we've started, or that we could start right now that you'd want to maybe celebrate?
I'm open to any idea of something we could celebrate.
Maybe I just want something nice with you to remember?
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Date: 2022-12-15 09:07 pm (UTC)then we can just celebrate our friendship
[ Okay, maybe the answer is a little sappy, and a little cliched.. But Chizuru feels like it works. If Neopolitan wants something nice to remember together, then this is the nicest thing of all, right? ]
the day does not even matter
we can just pick any day
but that day can be a special memory of our friendship
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Date: 2022-12-19 09:24 pm (UTC)Perfect, I'm down for that.
Why don't we go with New Years as a time to celebrate?
I don't think it means as much here, so it's kind of nice.
We're still celebrating an anniversary in that case.
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Date: 2022-12-21 08:09 pm (UTC)Hold on, Neo. Chizuru has to quickly compute something in her head here.. especially since she definitely hasn't been in this place during the last time New Years rolled around, so-- ]
what day is that exactly
[ Especially since she's not sure whether or not that actually lines up with what was considered New Years for her back home.. She's had tons of cultural differences to deal with already, why would this be different!! ]
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